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A new beginning

It’s quite official now. I’m no longer an intern. Which I guess means I’m a real honest to God photographer. Or that’s the closest description there is.

It’s been a little odd having such an abrupt transition. I’ve been replaced (check out the new interns here).  And I’m not in Atlanta anymore.  As I was driving away on Sunday I got a little emotional.  I have mixed feelings.  Even if I’m excited about the future and about finally being back in the same place as my husband this was still a period of my life that’s come to an end.  And it was pretty awesome so it’s a little sad.  But I don’t really have the time to think about that.  I need to move on.  I need to push really hard.  I need to make this work.  And I’ve got an awful lot to learn.  And I’m pretty sure the future is going to be even better than the past so I’m not looking back.

But it’s going to be hard and it’s going to take a lot of patience.  Patience and hustle.  Because I’m going to have to work really hard to make this work and I’m going to have to wait a while to get to the point I really want.  Both with my photography and my business.  And the exciting thing is, when I get there I’ll probably want more.  At this point my immediate goals are pretty modest.  I’d like a net positive income flow.  I’d like to have fun doing my job.  And I’d like to make pictures I’m proud of and that my clients love.

So.  This past Saturday I spent a few hours with some more friends of a friend (thanks again, Amy).  And I did photo shoot number one of my post-internship life.  And I’m not going to lie.  I struggled a bit.  I’ve done enough couples shoots now that I’m starting to build my repertoire of shots.  But I don’t want to do the same poses with every single couple so that all my couples and engagement shoots look the same (that would be really boring).  And I don’t want to portray every couple the same.  Every couple is different.  Who they are.  And who they are together.  How they love.  So I’m struggling a bit now with how to bring a new perspective to each shoot.  I think it probably means I’m overdue for looking at some photos for inspiration.  And sometimes I just have to let go.  I was a bit worried I wasn’t getting the really cool images I wanted on this shoot.  And then we found the waterfall and the rock where I could put my couple in front of the waterfall.  It didn’t matter that for me to take a picture of my couple on that rock in front of the waterfall I had to be in the creek.  At that point I relaxed.  And I stopped worrying about forcing things.

Thank you, Brian and Anna.



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