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Month II

Ack.  Really, we’re two thirds of the way through this?  That’s just crazy.  Crazy but true.

I think I’ve done a lot over this past month.  When I say A LOT I mean a heck of a lot.

Shall I list the shoots?  You know, I did.  And the list has eighteen shoots so I don’t think I will.  But I will show you some of my favorite photos from this month.  And I’ll tell you this. My perspective has changed over this last month.  My belief in myself has changed.  And I’m finally feeling positive.  And feeling like I can make this happen after this internship is over.

The shoot above with all the dancers.  I made that happen.  Me.

I’ve been feeling really positive about my photography these past couple weeks once I had my epiphany that my shots should be different.  And that was okay.  Even great.

And I finally feel like I should be getting paid.  Maybe not the big bucks.  But getting paid.  Because I know I can get awesome photographs anywhere.  I have that confidence.  That confidence has led to a decidedly negative cash flow month.  I bought a new camera.  It needed to happen.

I’ve finally gotten over my big hang-up with events.  I have shots from events I like and I no longer dread going to events.  I’ve learned to relax.  And keep trying different things.  Oh, and get my camera in people’s faces.

Am I developing a style?  I think so.  Slowly.  I don’t know that I’m at the point where I can verbalize what that style is.  Perhaps by the end of the internship I’ll be there.  Not yet.  For now I take the pictures I want to.  I find the people I want to photograph.  I found the stories that interest me.  And I photograph it how I see it.  For now, that’s enough.

I’ll let you in on a little secret I learned shortly after I got back from my trip home to Colorado.  Photography is a lot of work. Getting jobs even if they’re free involves a lot of work.  To be successful at this internship and in photography later I need to create my own work.  I realized if I waited around for other people to plan shoots I wasn’t going to shoot as much as I wanted.  Because I want to shoot nearly everyday and that’s a lot to ask.  So I started dreaming up shoots I wanted to make happen.  And figuring out how to do that, who to get help from.  And contacting everyone I knew in Atlanta (interns and friends of friends) to convince them to let me take their pictures.  I took matters into my own hands.  And these last few weeks have had no shortage of photoshoots.  Some others have planned (some are paying gigs I’ve been invited to like the wedding).  And some I’ve planned.  I just hope I can keep it up for the next month.


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